When the doctor first told me that you were medically needed to re-align my jaw, I was completely fine with having you join my teeth. However, the next day I quickly regretted welcoming you. Since then you have caused me much pain and embarrassment.
I cannot even tell you the number of times that I have swallowed the tiny rubber bands that accompany you. It has been enough times that I told my husband that if I ever pass out, to tell the EMTs to look for blockages of rubber bands in my stomach. Not to mention how embarrassing it has been to have the rubber bands spring out of my mouth while I am talking. “Oh, I am sorry. Let me remove that the rubber band that just shot out of my mouth and landed on your shoulder.” is certainly not a phrase I have ever had to say in the past. There is also the embarrassment of eating in public with you. Why do you feel the need to trap every piece of food I place in my mouth? Why?
Do you know how much insecurity you bring? Do you bring insecurity to all or just me? It seems that since you have come along, I have faced the insecurity that once haunted me as a seventh grader. How do you have that kind of impact on people? However, I will tell you the silver lining to your presence. God can use anything to bring one closer to Him…including annoying brackets and wires. You have caused me to dig deeper in the understanding of who I am. I am not the reflection in the mirror. I am not what the world says. I am defined through Christ alone.
So, although I cannot say that I will miss you once you are removed from my teeth. I can say that I appreciate you. I appreciate that you are working hard to re-align my jaw and I appreciate that you have taught me the deeper truth of my value in Christ. Even though this is hard for me to say, I want to say: thank you. Thank you for being you!
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