To blog or not to blog…
that has been my question for the last few weeks.
First of all, I would like to say thank you for all the kind comments, emails and text messages. You all know how to make a girl feel loved. You have a million things to do in your day and you took the time to write me and make me feel special. I thank you so much for that.
I have been in prayer because I really did not know what to do. I do not feel that it is my story to tell on my blog of what happened to my friend through her blog. What I will tell you is that several of my friends that have blogs have had someone who has overstepped the bounds in terms of making them become really uncomfortable to the point of where they questioned whether or not they should blog. I have always sympathized with my friends and even though some of their stories were downright scary, they never shook me enough where I thought about not blogging. However, this friend’s story has shaken me to the point that I was not willing to type another letter on my keyboard until God confirmed to me if I were to continue or not.
What was the difference? Well, I have had a dream three times over the last year of what happened through my friend’s blog would happen to Taylor, my daughter. My dream is very vivid and very much the same each time. I have awakened three times from that dream visibly shaken. I share every detail of the dream with my husband. He then lovingly reassures me that it was just a dream.
I had just shared my dream with one of my friends on our way home from the Created for Care retreat. I was telling her how I wondered if it was a warning or just something my ‘momma mind’ was creating out of fear. THEN, not long after we got home I found out that the exact thing I had been dreaming actually happened to a friend. SO, there you see the dilemma…
What I have been shown throughout this time is that I fear man. Plain and simple, I am worried. God does not create worry. Therefore, I must replace that worry with trust. I must trust in HIM no matter what. My answer has been placed before me in countless ways over the last few weeks. In Bible study, through my friends’ words, through my child’s prayers, through a stranger, through a song heard over and over -where I just now realized what was being said, through a sermon and through my husband…all have given me the answer. I am a little hard headed
sometimes a lot of
the time, so apparently I needed all of those examples to understand what God
was telling me from the beginning. Now I
see and I am free…
You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
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