To blog or not to blog…
that has been my question for the last few weeks.
First of all, I would like to say thank you
for all the kind comments, emails and text messages. You all know how to make a girl feel
loved. You have a million things to do
in your day and you took the time to write me and make me feel special. I thank you so much for that.
I have been in prayer because I really did not know what to
do. I do not feel that it is my story to
tell on my blog of what happened to my friend through her blog. What
I will tell you is that several of my friends that have blogs have had someone
who has overstepped the bounds in terms of making them become really
uncomfortable to the point of where they questioned whether or not they should
blog. I have always sympathized with my
friends and even though some of their stories were downright scary, they never
shook me enough where I thought about not blogging. However,
this friend’s story has shaken me to the point that I was not willing to type
another letter on my keyboard until God confirmed to me if I were to continue
or not.
What was the difference? Well, I have had a dream three times over the last year of what happened through
my friend’s blog would happen to Taylor, my daughter. My dream is very vivid and very much the same
each time. I have awakened three times
from that dream visibly shaken. I share
every detail of the dream with my husband.
He then lovingly reassures me that it was just a dream.
I had just shared my dream with one of my
friends on our way home from the Created for Care retreat. I was telling her how I wondered if it was a
warning or just something my ‘momma mind’ was creating out of fear. THEN, not long after we got home I found out
that the exact thing I had been dreaming actually happened to a friend. SO,
there you see the dilemma…
What I have been shown throughout this time is that I fear
man. Plain and simple, I am
worried. God does not create worry. Therefore, I must replace that worry with trust. I must trust in HIM no matter what. My answer
has been placed before me in countless ways over the last few weeks. In Bible study, through my friends’ words,
through my child’s prayers, through a stranger, through a song heard over and
over -where I just now realized what was being said, through a sermon and
through my husband…all have given me the answer. I am a little hard headed sometimes a lot of
the time, so apparently I needed all of those examples to understand what God
was telling me from the beginning. Now I
see and I am free…
John 8:32
You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
©2011 Filled With Praise
praying for you!
ReplyDeleteOh my. I definitely understand why you would be scared....vivid dreams and then to find out it was happening to a friend. I don't know of anyone who would not be shaken up.
ReplyDeletePraying for you dear friend. For you to let go of this worry and trust in Him. Trust is hard but so worth it I am learning. (it's a hard lesson though!)
((hug))
eW. I can see how that would freak you out. Every now and then I'm totally uncomfortable with the amount of my life that is on the internet. I think about just deleting the whole thing, but I never have peace about it. And so I blog....
ReplyDeletePerfect love casts out fear...you just reminded me of that. Waiting in anticipation to see what God does FOR you and THROUGH you in this next season. Love you!
ReplyDeleteswitch to wordpress and password protect posts...thats what I have done
ReplyDeleteswitch to wordpress and password protect posts...thats what I have done
ReplyDeletePraying for wisdom for you Amy. I know first hand how bad things really do happen. Having the police at my house that day shook me to the core. God is using your blog in mighty ways and the devil just isn't happy. I know family comes first and I am praying for peace and wisdom for you. Love you tons!
ReplyDeleteYour blog posts are missed, but I understand whatever decision you make.
ReplyDeleteI fight fear sometimes. I am afraid of the "what ifs?" What if this happens...what if that happens? Everyone is always telling me not to fear...not to dwell on it...and to trust the Lord. And I know they are right, because the Bible tells us all of the time to "Fear Not!"
ReplyDeleteIt is a little hard sometimes to let it go...and to trust God instead of fearing man....and the things that could happen. But when peace comes...it is so wonderful!
One of my husband's favorite verses is "Be still and know that I am God!" And I love that one too. I have it on a plaque on the wall as a reminder. (:>)
I know that in this life "things" do happen that shake us to the core, and that rock our world...but God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all that we ask or think. He has been with us through those kinds of things...and He has walked us through them...holding us, and caring for us...and loving us!
I don't think He wants us to be careless and to put ourselves in dangerous situations...but I do know that we can't live our lives victoriously if we are in a pit of fear.
So, I guess it depends on His leading, and how He directs you Amy. Do what you think He wants you to do. And just know that You are loved!
Linda
I miss your posts, but understand safety of our children is always the highest priority. To be honest, I'm torn about my blog too. I am not sure what road to take. I'll be praying for you and your decision.
ReplyDeleteI had the same fears a couple of years ago. That is why I made my original blog private and started the new one under a pseudonym. I don't post pics of my kids and I am careful to not put any identifying info because there are way too many psychos out there. I can share my heart and encourage others in their walk with Jesus without risking the privacy and safety of my family. I know God will lead you, as well.
ReplyDeletePraying for wisdom and peace for you!
ReplyDeleteI understand your concern and fear. I ended up making my family blog private b/c for several reasons and I'm actually enjoying the freedom of not having to worry.
ReplyDeletesorry about what happened with your friend.... I have been figuring this out for me too and it is scary what can happen......ugh this world.
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